Because

Out of date

Out of time

Everybody has been leaving

And I left behind

..Alone

Don’t know since when

I prefer to stop thinking

..to stop feeling

and just keep walking

..(in a ring)

without even seeing

without even knowing

..Dumb

Like a spell I keeps telling myself,

: Just bear with it,

..the tiresome

..the boresome

..the lonesome

It is just another storm

Enjoy it

..until the last blew of the wind

..until the last drip of the rain

Through and through..

Then embrace the bright emptiness

that awaits in the end

..But, for how long?

In so many times,

I thought I have reached my limit

But, “No,” You said

“There are more,

So much more ahead.”

So, of my dumbness I questioned You,

: Why?

..why You makes me like this?

..why You makes me bear it?

..is it not enough already?

And with smile that always entaced,

You embraced me,

and whispered to my ear,

: Because I love you,

..because I can’t stand you love any other more

..because I want you to love Me,

..just Me,

..and Me alone

But, I’m a fool

I keeps failing to see

..to feel

..to know

..to understand

And so I keeps running away

..from You

Pabo!

Baka!

Idiot!

You may telling me in many languages

I’ll take it

..because I am.

(Wallahu'alam)


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